“Then she called the name of the LORD who spoke to her, You-Are-The-God-Who-Sees; for she said,” Have I also here seen Him who sees me?” Genesis 16:13-14
I was reading my devotion this morning and it hit me. God sees us better then we see ourselves. He sees what we want and He sees what we need. For years, I longed to be home more with my daughter. I desired to learn more nursing skills. I desired to move into a better subdivision and have more room for our hopefully growing family. I desired for my Beachbody business to blossom. I prayed to God for two years for these desires. This morning I was reading about Hagar in Genesis. She fled from Sarah in to the wilderness. This is where she encountered the presence of God. In that moment, she realized that He sees the true her. He sees us as a redeemed saint, glorious and radiantly wrapped in His righteousness. Wow, how awesome is that? No matter what our past may be He sees our greatness.
As I was going through the events of this year, I could not help but think that He knows EXACTLY what He is doing. My mom passed in a car accident in March. In July, I was offered a job that would allow me more time with my daughter and the opportunity for growth in the health field. I tried for a few years to find a job like this that would allow me flexibility and allow us to take Abigail out of daycare. I interviewed for this job and before I went in I prayed things would fall into place. They did. I came out of that interview in tears praising God for this opportunity. It felt more than right. Things did not work out with my schedule and the schedule of the job so they had to say no. I was crushed. I knew that God would answer my prayers but I was not sure how or why He did not answer them with that job. The timing was not right in His eyes. He had to work out the details. Two weeks later, I got a phone call from the place I interviewed asking me if I would come work for them. They said they would be able to work with my schedule. I was in tears. My mom knew I wanted this more then anything. Soon after this, we put our house on the market. We sold our house and we have found the perfect house to move to that is safe, has better schools, and is big enough. My Beachbody business is growing and gives me so much satisfaction to help people daily but also that I have a way to hold myself accountable.
Looking back now, I see if He would of gave me these things before the passing of my mom then I would not of appreciated them as much as I do now. I also think I would of ended up unhappy and wanting to find something to fill the void of loosing my mom. Waiting to give me these desires of my heart after she passed has given me things to look forward to and to help heal my heart. He really does love us and has a plan and time for everything. We have to keep praying and holding on to the fact that He really knows BEST:)